December 25, 2007, Tuesday

It’s Christmas day. We got up really late without much of excitement.

Now that we are all home, no work and no school. One dreadful thing to me is that the house is so quiet. The feeling of tremendous loss and grief is with its sharp edge to pierce my heart.

Unlike last year (four months after Lydia passed away), we had a pretty good Christmas just like previous years.

This year, we have no Christmas tree, no gifts un-wrapping, no Christmas light inside or outside the house. Not that we did not want to celebrate the Christmas, daddy was not in good shape, emotionally, to put up all the decorations.

Kids were all OK about our very plain Christmas this year. They did not have much expectations. However, we did manage to go to the nursing home to bring the love and Christmas spirits to the seniors and had a very good Christmas Eve evangelical celebration meeting at the new church building. It was more meaningful.

At the Christmas dinner with some church families, we shared that indeed, life is difficult. But that is God has in store for us. We need to strive to keep up with all the challenges and trials, to serve God, until we reach the finish line.

Whatever how long that is. We need the strength and wisdom from the Lord in order to keep going.