December 21, 2007, Friday

16 months have past since Lydia departed.

Many friends sent us cards and emails and asking us how we are doing, since they have not seen the updates on the web site recently.

Well, we are not doing well at all. I have been extremely busy at work. Girls are busier than ever. Poor mom, she was not able to get busy. Therefore, she grieves a lot nowadays. And that does not help the situation.

Many many times a day, sorrow would attack me. I miss Lydia so much. I have many tears, and my heart aches all the time. I wiped my eyes when there is nobody around. I cried whenever I was driving by myself.

Christmas is not helping at all. When people are happy and celebrating, we are suffering and grieving.

If this is the life we ought to live, then it’s not very enjoyable.

And our home church ministers did not help us, and did things in the opposite direction, intentionally or unintentionally. But thank the Lord, many other brothers and sisters from other churches continue to support us and help us spiritually.

It seems God has deserted us. But He still uses different way to help us.

We are trying to be alert spiritually. But again it’s very hard, because of our hearts are seriously injured.

We are truly weak, and I pray that God would strengthen us. We really need it.

Still, not give up hope yet. Not give up our faith, and not give up our love for the Lord.

Despite whatever already happened to us, He is sovereign God.

Merry Christmas!!!