November 21, 2007, Wednesday

Fifteen months after Lydia left.

Second Thanksgiving.

The sorrow is tremendous. Still.

Strange that the sadness does not become any less as the time goes on, as many people told us. So, apparently, they did not have the experience. They just thought it should be like that.

In the evening, mom and I had a big argument over the whole situation, our children, God’s plan, our faith, and etc. Not a soft and warm sharing, but an intense discussion with too much logic and reasoning. Does it help? I am not sure. But it was certainly very difficult.

To get through each hour during the holiday seasons is challenging.

It will be nice to be without holidays. Let the days to be filled with work and daily routine.

However, an email from one girl’s teacher reminded us, to enjoy our children and family. That helps. While grieving for the dead one, yes, we still need to take care of the survived three. It’s harder than it looks, because of our wounds.

Your emails and cards helped us a lot too.

Thank you very much and praise the Lord.

Happy Thanksgiving.

I am trying to count our blessing (again, it helped), and you should too…