September 28, 2007, Friday

Esther left for Colorado to visit Focus on the Family this morning. Before she left, the Brio Girl selection was announced through the email sent to these four Brio girl finalists yesterday. She was not the one. Still, We thank God for bringing her so far to this point. We pray her weekend at Focus on the Family would be a great experience and opportunity to share Lydia’s story.

Since I am at a new job now, most of my colleagues did not know about Lydia. One colleague walked into my office today and saw the framed picture with four girls,

“Wow, you have four daughters.” He said, “How old are they?”

“Yes, I had, but one of them died recently.” I replied.

“Oh, I am sorry.”

“Yes, it’s very difficult for us.” I continued, “It’s the greatest defeat in my life, the second most serious defeat, compared with this one, is so insignificant…”

The conversation like this would probably happen again and again in the future. It made me feel better that people care and in the same time, emotionally worse because of sadness.

We are complicate creature from the Lord. We are the best creation of all. I need to trust the Lord and appreciate the life He has given me. Otherwise, life is really complex and for the most part, difficult.

We went to Cincinnati Symphony concert tonight. They featured the Lord of the Ring trilogy music. The music was very beautiful, and at times, very sorrowful. I had my emotional swing again during the concert. Too many thoughts came to my mind…

But I thank God for the great night. I am still alive, and was able to listen to the beautiful music and songs. Many deaf people can not.

And we need to live our life to the fullest. Many people were not given the chance to live, and that includes our dear Lydia…

However, she lived a faithful, strong and beautiful life, and we need to do that as well.