September 9, 2007, Sunday

With mom and three girls, we just finished listening the radio program, “Courageous Living” which invited mom and dad to tell a story, Lydia’s story.

At first, I felt a little bit weird to hear my own voice came out of radio. However, quickly, our eyes were red when the host mentioned to us that you had FOUR beautiful daughters…

And I was sad.

Then a few seconds later, we were laughing because daddy could not speak words clearly…

Emotion hit me again one minute later. But then good feeling came up later that hopefully some radio listeners would get encouraged knowing that although with tremendous suffering, we believe in God and He is a great God. Do not lose hope. We need to live our life to honor God. If adversity hit, then it’s our opportunity to glorify Him. Shine to the world, because our God is good, and He knows what He is doing, and He meant for good. Good things will come out of it. And it has been, started the day Lydia was diagnosed…

At the end, we felt really good, greatly comforted. Isn’t it something?

Our God is great God, and He is sovereign. And for sure, He loves us. With God, all will be OK.

As I mentioned in the radio, I felt betrayed by God right after Lydia passed away. Despite so many people prayed to God to heal Lydia, and we have tried our best and devoted our lives to serve Him, He still took Lydia away. There is nothing we could exchange with God. We simply could not negotiate with Him.

But it’s the same God who has also brought us so much comfort through His words, and He led so many people around us being the true blessings.

Do I need to say anymore? Just hold on to the Lord, and be ready for tomorrow.

Not only I would be ready for tomorrow, I am more ready to meeting the Lord and Lydia. And I just wish that day comes sooner than I could ever expect. That would be a surprised present for me.

But for now, again, Living IT ALL…