February 6, 2008, Wednesday
Here comes the day I dread the
most, or perhaps only secondary to August 21.
All the suffering and pain started
two years ago today. I started
quivering simply think of it.
After super ball Sunday, and Super
Tuesday yesterday for the presidential election, here comes my super sad day. The world goes on, it does not stop. That is good. I want the time to pass as fast as it can. The only problem I have is that I could not
catch up its speed. It took me extra
effort to be “normal”. And the result
of that is losing weight. Well, I have
no complaint of that. Lydia was like me
genetically. She had hard time to gain
weight, and lost weight easily.
Many people we know or around us
are having flu or being sick. Well,
it’s the flu season. There is nothing
strange about what is going on. However,
it was the same way I thought Lydia had two years ago. She got headache, and threw up a few times
over this past week two years ago.
Although she rarely got sick, I simply thought she just had a cold or
flu. Never would I have imagined that
she had life threatening cancer and eventually took her life.
So, if now we are having a cold or
flu. Just a cold or flu. Be honest, we have to be very thankful. God is very good to us. Really.
It can be a lot worse, and it can be the start of life long grieving and
unbearable sorrow.
I have to believe, and I do, that
one day, I will be able to stare at this date, February 6, and claim that this
is a special day, that I can be thankful, and that God’s way is higher than
mine.
“I am the
Lord’s servant. May it be to me as you
have said.” Luke 1:38.
“…And a sword will pierce your own soul too.” Luke
2:35.
If Mary could do it, I should
learn the lessons from her, noting that her suffering has accomplished so much
for many…