Continue having sadness and deep
sorrow in my heart all the time. Many
said this is the normal grieving process, and could last as long as years. Sounds scary.
I had terrible night last
night. Not able to sleep (maybe I
should not take a short nap Sunday afternoon), deep sorrow and heartaches hit
me constantly. I thought I would get
crazy if the dawn does not come soon.
I prayed to God to help me all
night long.
For a few moments, I thought I
fell asleep, but easily woke up by the non-stop nightmares and stomachaches.
Amazingly, by God’s grace, I was
able to get up and work for the entire day without much problem. It’s like a miracle.
I miss the good old days when
Lydia was around and her never-stopping talks.
Seldom got my nerve, most of time got us laughs and amazed about her
wit.
Then, pain and suffering
arrived. Tremendous loss hit us. Separation from Lydia is unbearable. Any new joy seems so trivial, compared with
the terrible pain and sorrow.
Hold on to God is the best thing I
can do everyday.
“Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.” 1 Peter 4:12,13.
And this
is my hope…